Annnd, I’ve made it this far. Not much of an accomplishment, I know, but you know what they say: ‘Every journey starts with a single step (then another just after the first—or something to that effect…I tried…shut up.) Anyway, this post is about three legitimate fears—as opposed to illegitimate fears I suppose. This isn’t the topic I’d typically choose to cover, but oh well, have to follow the rules, right?
Three Legitimate Fears
1. Not ‘Living Up’
By not living up, I mean not living up to expectations—my own, my family’s, my friend’s, my boss’, my coworker’s, my mentee’s, etc. The list can go on and on. Everyone wants to reach their full potential and make those they care about happy in the process, but how often do we let people down? How often do we let ourselves down? I don’t want to die with regrets, or coulda/shoulda/woulda[s] on my life’s record. Like any other fear, I came about this one by the consequences that came from letting people that I love down. Not living up has caused me to live my life in a constant state of anti-complacency (if that’s not a word, let’s call up Webster and make it one). It’s good to strive for bigger and better things, but every once in a while, it’s nice to stop and smell the roses. So I’m told anyway—I can’t do this.
2. Being a P.O.S.
Everyone knows ‘that guy’ people try to avoid like the plague due to their constant negative disposition. In no way do I ever want to be ‘that guy’. I try my best to avoid it and be the positive person that I am. This fear comes from an ex-girlfriend telling me that I was a bad person…just like that…straight up. Yes, I’ve heard many hurtful things in my day, but that one has stayed with me more than any other.
I happen to believe in life after death, so to me this shouldn’t be much of a worry, right? Emmmm nope! We’re only on this earth once. No matter what your religious beliefs, we only live the life we have once. There’s so much pressure to get it right the first time because what happens after death depends on it. MY belief is that our time on this earth matters. I want to make the best of it before kicking the bucket.